Monday, August 19, 2013

FACING FEAR

Posted: 19 Aug 13
Updated: 24 Aug

Flash dream this a.m. on the screen of my mind. A provocative image!

FACING FEAR 


20 Aug.   Upon awakening this morning, as I began to reflect on this provocative image questions began forming in my mind.  "OK", I thought, "so I am facing fear. That is a true statement. What is this fear?" 

Many thoughts then began to flow into my mind. First I thought of the two fears mentioned by Rene Gerard (?) that thrive in ecclesiastical organizations, namely a. the fear of defilement and b. the fear of insufficient love. If one must chose between these fears, which one is more important? Clearly it is the latter.

Continuing this thread, I thought of a recent letter written to one of my sons who had taken umbrage at something I'd said recently. "How dare you......", he demanded. I responded by first writing, "I dare because love trumps fear..."

Yes, I like that, but do I truly know such love? I fear not well enough! It is a paradox.

And then I think: 'for fear to lose its power, it must be faced!' Hence, the flash dream image gains more power as I turn to face the many fears that I can think of. Here is a list of some of my fears:

1. chaos
2. pain
3. rejection
4. ridicule
5. infirmity
6. loss (of relationships, mindfulness, meaning, understanding...)
7. unbelief
8. unclear thinking
9. manipulation
10. arrogance
11. tyranny
12. ecclesiastical bullies
13. corrupt politicians
14. poverty

And, whoever manages to read this, please feel free to add your own lists to this one. Surely, as we share and confront such fears together by facing, they will transform into something creative, alive and beautiful. This is what I believe and trust. May this post be a place to track some of these transformations...

On Aug 21, Anonymous-1 wrote:
I fear generational influences that hold me captive, as well as being deceived and misguided. I also fear cleaning up messes.



To be continued....




1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I fear generational influences that hold me captive, as well as being deceived and misguided. I also fear cleaning up messes.